Irresponsibilty

Another hazy weekend...actually I'm quite used to it already. Tmr is the 2nd official day of school. I really think I will miss all my friends...afterall 2 years is still a lot. We started off not knowing each other and ended up enjoying many happy moments together. Even short bus journeys to the Bedok Interchange can be very enjoyable too. Although I can't say that I've got a very good class, but at least the gals in my class are really wonderful.


Till now I still feel very guilty. I helped KS checked his physics prelim paper and yet I missed out a point which could have scored him 1 mark and will make a grade difference. I did check, but I think I just missed that part out. Luckily he found out and claimed the mark. Although he didn't blame me, but i feel that its really my fault. I feel so irresponsible and guilty and sad...even till now. I doubt he'll ever trust me again...cos I think that's how I'll feel if i were in his shoes.


And of course, I made another dumb mistake during the week by making 5 people (including myself) do a Biochem worksheet which wasn't due till the next lecture. I didn't do it on purpose...it really didn't occur to me that we'll be doing the other physical chem worksheet for that very lecture. I think some people were not happy but they didnt scold me. I rather they scold me, at least I know how they feel and by being scolded, I'd feel much better...


I've been trying very hard, but sometimes i get the feeling that I'm still not responsible enough. But I've really tried...and I'm really very tired...I think I'm just a very lousy chem rep and I'm sure thats how some of the guys in my class feel...

Brand new Sunday

Ah...finally a brand new and fresher day. Yesterday was so trrible. I feel as if I was living in some hazy hazy world, without fresh air yesterday. Looking out of the window, I see like 60% haze and 40% scenary. It was really very bad. For the first time after how-many-donkey-years, the PSI hit more than 100. The worst was last night, with PSI of 150. 150!!! Can you believe it or not? We are in Singapore leh, not Indonesia...Then the night before was also terribly terrible. I smelled smoke, but my parents smelled none. My sister was fed up with my constant complaints about me being suffocated. But it was really bad mah...somemore people were carrying lanterns, playing sparkles and burning anything they can find in the park nearby...how good do you think the air quality can be?


Today was much much better. Right now the PSI is only about 37. Great huh? Anyway, we went Pan Pacific Hotel this afternoon for the MINDEF Scholarship Talk. Ok lah, the scholarship is definitely fantastic (they have only awarded 38 scholarships over the past 10 yrs) but if you are talking about the 3-mth BMT and OCS training, I really don't mind giving it a miss. Then the atmosphere is always the best when it comes to Q&A. As usual, not many people asked. It was supposed to end by 5pm, yet by 5pm I was already at home. Haha. The food was nice though...But today was definitely not my happiest day anyway.


& Talk about coincidence, ZJ and I were on the same train on our way to City Hall. Haha, where got so qiao one...

Maths Lecture +++

Today's maths lecture was so interesting...putting the real purpose of the lecture aside, its really fun to hear about things like hamming code and how the last letter of our NRIC is determined. I always thought its a random event. Haha. But whö's taking maths in University? Crazy ah...


And i find things between me and her turning about funny, but I don't know how to describe. What's going on? Actually I roughly know the reason why, and if thats really the case, I definitely don't quite like the reason. I have never treated her this way before...sigh. But there's no way I'm giving in to her just because of her comments...